FML.

Have you felt so helpless before? When it's like you can't do anything anymore and you're just waiting to be thrown out the window? When it seems like the world is against you and all you could do is just stay still because you know nothing can ever change what's already goin to happen? Like...anything you intend to do won't work...and in the end, all you can blame is yourself.

Isn't it a sad feeling?

I've hurt myself. Countless of times, in fact. But i never learned. I'm so miserable i could volunteer myself to be sucked in a black hole or smething...yet i keep committing the same mistake all over again. I know i'm not afraid to do what's best. So what's taking me so long to finally turn over a new leaf?

All these shit because of the emotional stress i've been feeling lately. School...family...friends...I think i think too much.

But what do i do...when my mind chooses to debate about those petty things and makes them more...complicated? : I wish i could just turn it off even for just a while. I wish i won't feel anything anymore...

If living life would feel like this, i don't think i should continue on.